I have been going back into my posts from years past (have I actually been doing this since 2001?) and adding back categories. Several things have struck me about those old posts:
How much I had to say and how passionately I said it. I hope to get that back as time goes along. I miss it. One of the down sides of being medicated, I guess, but better than bouncing up and down like a yo-yo.
How many friends I have let fall by the wayside. I really hate that. I really have no excuse, not even that I was too sick to see what I was doing. I will have to touch base with some of them again and see if we can mend broken bridges.
How often I used to post! Sometimes more than once a day, even. I don’t aspire to doing that again, but something more regular than randomly would be a nice habit to get into.
It’s good to be back on the air. I hope I can keep up with things better from here on out.
It’s nice to be feeling so much better. I am working with my current doctor to try to make sure it lasts a while.
My previous doctor, whom I finally fired, was content to maintain the status quo even when I continually complained of slipping further into depression. After I got fed up and took action to get better help, I hooked up with a doctor who understands and cares.
The big problem is that anti-depressants don’t work well with Bipolar Disorder. They work for 4-6 months and then fade out. I finally think I have a doctor that understands that. My current med has kicked me into a very mild hypomania, which I am really enjoying. It’s so wonderful to feel good again.
Progress is being made on a new short story (YAY! it’s been way too long!). It is called “Love, Honor, and Cherish”, and I am really enjoying writing it. It’s a mainstream story about, you guessed it, love and marital problems. I often miss being able to write the dark, twisted tales, but it’s just really hard to force my mind into that mode right now. The down side of hypomania, as far as my writing is concerned.
I also got most of the links on my Pubs and Subs page updated. Apparently, my stories have been poison to any market that has published them to date. The roster of the dead includes AlienSkin, The Harrow, A Fly in Amber, The Writer’s Hood, and Nocturnal Ooze. Editors beware!
If you are a writer and don’t know about Vision, I encourage you to check it out. It’s free and full of wonderful information for writers of all kinds.
I am now entering data to update the index through Issue 60. Issues 61-69 will have to wait a little while until I have some more time. Almost time to get back to the paying job. It’s been nice while it lasted.
In other news. I have lost all of my categories during the upgrade to Noise in the Attic. I do not really have time or inclination to rebuild those for over 650 posts at this time. I will try to put them back in over time. It will probably take a long time. Oh well.
It’s been a long, dark, lonely time. Bipolar depression really sucks. But I’m back, even if it is temporary. We’re adjusting my meds on an ongoing basis to try to stay ahead of the curve on this. So far, so good.
You will have noticed some changes on the blog. For a variety of reasons, I had to upgrade to the latest version of WordPress and, in the process, lost all my categories and users. If you would like to comment, please sign up (again). Such is the life of a Webmaster, even a part-timer like me. Nothing like a computer to really foul things up.
Anyway, more to come. I am debating posting more stories. I have begun submitting again (see the Pubs and Subs page for details), so I have to weed out those that I still think have a chance.
That’s all for today. See you again soon. If there’s anybody left out there, anyway.